Too loud

Just woke up after sleeping for 15 hours. I could have gone for longer. Hibernating was interrupted by a really weird phone call. I feel bad because I wasn't entirely awake, but apparently I just lost a best friend. Not lost per say, but no longer able to hang out. I understand, I do, but shit this really sucks.

In other news, I think I'm feeling pretty insecure about myself which is weird and stupid. I've got to stop that. 

I can't decide whether I want the summer to end or to go on forever. I guess I just can't decide which will be worse: this or fall. It's probably this and I've still got 10 more days of May plus 2 and a half more months. Not feelin' it.

I want things to be like they used toooooo.